In a interview with XXL, Beanie Sigel took the opportunity to apologize to Jay-Z for dissing him on a number occasions over the past year and a half. In the interview he says, “What Mike Epps say? Gangstas fuck up too. Whatever I felt this dude Jay did wrong to me, it can’t outweigh the one thing he did do for me – he gave me an opportunity. Dude gave me an opportunity. A lot of people don’t get opportunities. He gave me that. That outweighs everything. I need that in black and white. I got caught in the moment and put my feelings out there. I should have never done that”. I understand that it takes certain people time to understand the error of their ways. When I mention certain people, I mean people with a lot of pride. People in his position have a lot of pride and it could be considered a sign of weakness to admit mistakes. They rather go down swinging than admit defeat. I even understand that he might have been right on some of the issues that he had with his former Roc-a-fella teammate but for the life of me I would never understand why he would think that dissing Jay would up being anything other than a bad look for him. Did he really think he was going to come out on top? I knew it at the time that it was a desperate attempt to gain some attention. Starting beef and bringing up the past is always the last act of a desperate rapper. He did get the attention from a variety of blogs, magazines and radio shows but it didn’t last long and he didn’t get the attention from the person he wanted it the most from: Jay-Z. Why would Hov give him any attention? When Beanie would just end up beating himself. There’s only so long a man can bang his head against a brick wall before passing out. I won’t even get into this nonsense. If he was smart he would have took the same route Freeway did and just focus on making quality music. Instead of being bitter he got on his grind and progressed his music. He’s having the best rap career out of any Roc-a-fella associate post breakup of the dynasty.
Maybe Beans doesn’t have it in him to make the kind of music that he used to do. Maybe he realized he couldn’t do it without Jay by his side, guiding his career. That’s the sad thing about his decline. The music that he has released lately isn’t up to par with what he’s used to put out. It’s like watching a running back that can’t run and make the cuts that he used to. He just doesn’t have it anymore. What happened to that edge and hunger he had. Yea he might not have access to Kanye or Just Blaze for dope beats like he used to but where did his story telling ability and the emotion he put into his music go? He hasn’t done anything since, The B. Coming and that come out in 2005. Also in the interview with XXL he says he has a album worth of material bashing Jay and the Roc but he won’t be releasing it. “I was explaining the whole Roc-A-Fella shit and a lot of feelings were going to get hurt. I was airing shit out. Just the homies could listen to that when they come into the studio. I couldn’t put that out. It wouldn’t sit right with me”. Yea I think it’s a good idea not to release that music but I’m sure it will find it’s way online somehow. In the end an apology is better than nothing but for Beanie it’s too little too late.